Last week, I wrote about the profound blessings that I’ve experienced as a Lead Pastor. This week, I will share the greatest challenges. I am aware that these are not unique to me. Most Lead Pastors also face similar challenges. By sharing my experiences, I hope you might better understand some of the angst that your Lead Pastor faces.
Difficult Personnel Decisions
One of the greatest challenges I’ve faced as Lead Pastor deals with personnel. On several occasions, I’ve had to make tough decisions to remove people from my ministry teams or dramatically change their roles. This has never been easy because ministry teams are more than “headcount” (like a business). These are friends and colleagues. We have prayed together, worked together, wept together and done spiritual battle together.
But as a church grows, it changes and so does the needs for its ministry personnel. Larry Osborne from North Coast Church says that every time a church doubles in attendance, it become an entirely new church. It is not simply a larger version of the church it once was. It becomes an entirely new church. I have experienced this.
Summit was at least three completely different churches during my 23-years as Lead Pastor. And we needed three completely different ministry teams for each season. From launch to 1,000 we had one team. From 1,000 to 2,000 we had an entirely different team. And from 2,000+ we had another team altogether.
As a church grows, it changes. Consequently, the make-up of its staff must also change. Someone once put it like this: “What got us here, will not get us there.” As a Lead Pastor, this has required making difficult personnel decisions. This has never been easy.
The Weight of Money
Another challenge is what I call “the weight of money.” As a Lead Pastor, I have been the primary spokesperson for the vision of the churches I’ve served. And to accomplish God’s vision almost always requires money. This weight is relentless.
As a result, over the years, I have asked and asked and asked people to invest in the cause of Christ through the churches I’ve served. At points, this has grown weary for me, and I’m sure for the people in my congregations. But the vision of reaching more for Christ and growing them into fully devoted disciples is too important. So, I have pressed on.
Leading capital campaigns has been especially draining. I led through five major capital campaigns at Summit, and four smaller “Next Step” campaigns. Prior to that, I led through a major campaign in Wisconsin. Each of these required enormous time, effort, and spiritual and emotional energy. Billy Graham once said that his New York crusade in 1957 drained him so much that he never regained the same strength again. In a similar way, I’ve wondered if each capital campaign I led took a small piece of my soul. The weight on a Lead Pastor to raise money to fuel ministry is relentless.
Living in a Fishbowl
It has also been a challenge to “live in a fishbowl.” Because of my role as Lead Pastor, my family (especially my four children) endured more scrutiny and criticism than if I had sold insurance or worked in a bank. I recognize that “living in a fishbowl” is part of the cost of being in senior leadership. But it has never been something that Pam and I enjoyed. Our kids enjoyed it even less.
The Burden of Leadership
I don’t think I’m alone when I confess that I think constantly about the church I’m leading. I suspect this is true for most senior leaders, whether it’s in business, finance, medicine, sports, government, or media.
I wake up early with new ideas. I think about how to improve things when I’m driving. I pray constantly for God’s direction. As a Lead Pastor, I am always leading. I may travel two-thousand miles away for vacation, but the burden of leadership still simmers in private corners of my heart and mind.
People Leaving the Church
It doesn’t matter if the church has 50 people of 5,000 people, it always hurts when someone leaves to go to another church across town. At some level, it feels like a personal rejection, like I wasn’t good enough, or like my church wasn’t good enough.
When a church grows larger, it can be less noticeable when people leave. But I almost always know. It’s curious how the same people tend to sit in the same place week after week. So, when a longtime attender suddenly disappears, I notice. I used to try to reach out. But a long string of unanswered emails ended most of my attempts. People make choices and when they choose to leave “my” church, it hurts. The closer the person is connected to me relationally, the more it hurts.
Spiritual Target on My Back
One final challenge of senior leadership is the spiritual target I’ve had on my back. Satan is real and he is a devious adversary. Satan knows if he can take me down as a Lead Pastor, it will cause great harm to those in my congregation. So, he is constantly at work to discourage, to tempt, to provoke conflict at home and to distract.
With that long list of challenges, it’s a fair question to ask, “Why would anyone ever want to be a Lead Pastor?” The best answer I have is that this is what God has called me to be. Despite the challenges, I love what I do. God has wired me for this. Like Eric Liddell (the great Scottish Olympian and missionary) said about running, when I serve as Lead Pastor, I feel God’s pleasure.
That said, I hope you will cut your Lead Pastor some slack the next time he takes a misstep. Pray for him. Don’t speak disparagingly about him. Cheer him on. And if the time comes when God calls you to leave, do so quietly and respectfully. After all, the church is still the Bride of Christ.